*sigh* Oh, nine.

Well, so much for that. Successfully canned 2008 and, whether we were even ready for it, 2009 stormed in. I used to hate it when people would say "Wow, I can't believe that the year is over already!" or "Man, that year just blew by!", or something of the like. 2008 was the first year that I actually feel went by a lot faster than it should have. I found myself at the end of the year grabbing straws as if I were going to die the minute it turned 1/1/2009. It was a year I felt I wasn't living: I lived for school and work and everyone else and would have died before I did anything for myself.

• Spring 2008: 21 credits with work and what a mistake that was. My coworker, Suzie, left me for a job at the School of Pharmacy, but I made a new great friend, Heather, in her place. Ended a "thing" with a guy that I probably should have never started to begin with. My roommate hated him, my friends thought he was shady, not to mention that I was just a novelty to him. Apparently us asian women are in a high demand amongst our caucasian male peers. Ran the Monument 10K in the rain in about 53 minutes (shrug, shouldn't have stayed up until 4am that morning). Ran the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure in about 27 minutes. Stood in monsoon-like freezing rain for about 5 hours to see Radiohead live at Nissan Pavilion. It was totally worth the wet, smelly drive home and frostbitten toes.


• Summer 2008: Learned a lot of new definitions that summer. Worked every day from 8am to 5pm, defined the typical "office job" in my book. Met the most amazing person in the world only to learn the meaning of "bad timing". Had the greatest time in NYC and LA, only to realize that said person personified "heartlessness". I firmly resolved that I would do the same, maybe it would keep me from having emotions. Also met a guy that redefined the phrase "dumb as dirt", showed me how small Richmond really is when you're stuck in a world where everyone is like yourself.


• Fall 2008: Ouch. 3 graduate classes, 2 undergraduate classes, teaching assistantship, office work, and my sister's personal wedding planner. Talk about a tough 4 months right? Honest to god, I've never worked harder, slept less, ate less, not been in my apartment as often as I had in this semester. I lived in my office and literally slept at my desk probably 3 to 4 nights a week. So you might be asking, "Why would someone do this to themself?" I guess I was trying to prove something to my dad, my friends, and myself. I wanted to show my dad that he's wrong about me not being able excel in science; I wanted my friends to see that I'm serious about graduate studies in the medicine; and I wanted to know for myself that I can do anything if I want it bad enough. I got a MacBook and subsequently fell in love with all things Apple. Made my entire life run on Google. Re-established a kinship with my older sister while planning her wedding after she discovered that the friends she thought were "close" were not really friends at all. Learned that I'm an awesome Maid-of-Honor speechwriter. Trekked across the country with my $250-friend to UCCS. My best friends are going to stick by my side no matter what I'm going through and I love them for it.


• Winter 2008: Spent time with my momma, it's a lot harder than it sounds, trust me. It's never been so lonely at home without my brother and sister around. Of course everytime I saw my dad (which I tried to make as infrequent as possible), he lectured me about something. Won my fantasy football league and might even win the Blackfinn Pick 'Em league. Played the "heartless" card on a few boys, wondering if it's starting to become a defense mechanism. Realized that the only person in this world that's going to help me get what I want is myself. Went to the Downtown Countdown with my almost-bigbrother/cousin and his friends and had a blast. Caught up with an old friend that I haven't talked to since high school. It's amazing how much I've changed in 6 years.

So what's in store for 2009? Well, first and foremost, the theme is going to be self-improvement. I'm going to be running every race I can this year and run a consistent 8 minute mile, no matter what the total distance is. Eating healthy could also be a good start and not eating everything that comes out of a package or box. Also going to try looking groomed and maintained no matter how tired or beat I am; inherent in that is finally learning how to use makeup.

A newer friend of mine said that you should tell everyone your dreams, because out of all the people that belittle you, there might be one person that may help you achieve what you want. For her, it was her boyfriend. I don't know who it might be for me, but it wouldn't surprise me if I haven't met that person yet. Maybe I should learn to trust people more, maybe I should learn to let people into my world no matter how uncomfortable it feels. Though, it's really hard after you've done it before and been shot down so many times. There were definitely times in the past year that I doubted my capabilities and intellectual capacity, but I'm going to try and not do that anymore. I know I'm not the brightest crayon in the box, but I'm not dumb; just a little slower than everyone else I guess.

All the effort in the world won't matter if you're not inspired. And believe me,
I am inspired.